Living with Molly: Here We Go Again!

🎵 I Will Survive (https://youtu.be/6dYWe1c3OyU?si=LBNHUhXFsCQWGppb)

Because despite everything… we all will.

Friday was my pre-op appointment and after what started off as an emotional day, ended with my brain so full of information it didn’t have much room for anything else!

My table is absolutely covered in paperwork, leaflets, diagrams, forms and information about what’s about to happen over the next couple of weeks.

It’s a huge amount to take in.

Underneath all the medical terminology and consultant handwriting that lI have to squint to read, the short version is this:

The plan is to remove the tumour with a right-sided skin-sparing mastectomy, along with a sentinel node biopsy, and, all being well, reconstruct at the same time using an implant.

Even typing that still feels surreal – less than two weeks now until surgery and less than two weeks until this tumour is gone.

I’m very aware that there’s something inside me that needs removing but I’m also conscious that this body has carried me through 53 years of life, motherhood, laughter, stress, memories, heartbreak, recovery and everything in between, so I’m trying very hard not to be angry at it!

I was definitely in my head a lot on Friday. I think it was the sheer volume of information mixed with the reality of what’s coming. This weekend has been quieter and more reflective than my usual weekends.

My lovely little sister did a little mini birthday celebration for me which was really sweet, and apart from that I’ve mostly just rested, processed things and kept my world fairly calm.

I didn’t even go to the pub on Friday – I went for a run instead.

Yes people, that alone should tell you that I’m going through something major because Friday pub trips are usually always part of my whole being! 😂

The run helped as I came back feeling calmer and more focused. Less emotional and more “right then, let’s get this done.”

And while I’m sat here reflecting, I’m also very aware that so many people around me are quietly dealing with things every single day – cancer, mental health struggles, chronic pain, grief, exhaustion, fear.

A close friend of mine spent over 12 hours in A&E last week, in terrible pain following complications from previous bowel surgery, at one point lying on the floor because sitting hurt too much.

Life can be unbelievably hard sometimes.

So here’s to everyone currently going through something, whatever that something may be ❤️

We will survive.
We will get through.
You’re all amazing.

Sam x

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