🎵 Push It – Salt-N-Pepa (https://youtu.be/vCadcBR95oU?si=eLO2zEwjW6rMS1Zn) Because I’m:
- pushing my luck
- pushing my recovery boundaries
- pushing my family’s patience
- pushing (& pulling) the drain
I debated whether to even post these pictures because the first one is my “I’ve got this 💪🏻☀️” energy from yesterday, and the second one is:
“I am really fed up, I look like total shite and may never be ok ever again” sad vibes from today. But actually, both are true reflections of the last 2 days.
Spent most of today asleep in the shady corner of the garden whilst the family worked like absolute Trojans around me, planting flowers, sorting pots, doing washing, hanging things out, generally keeping the world turning whilst I contributed absolutely nothing except irritation and occasional moaning 😆
Meanwhile DJ Pico Pump and his mate MC Drain have been causing absolute havoc. Every time I move I get this searing pain where the drain goes in, which is horrible. Then today it decided to leak as well which was ever so delightful 🤢 Poor other half had to help me work out how to get them sorted.
So now the drains have had a handbag upgrade. We’ve moved from standard NHS chic into:
✨ Valentino darling ✨ 😂😍
if I’m going to carry bodily fluids around with me for days on end, I may as well accessorise properly even if it is only the cheap bag that the real designer bag came in 🤭 (ah remember the days when I could dress up and go out with proper accessories?!).
The problem is I keep instinctively picking things up with my right arm or trying to help do jobs, then immediately getting shooting pains and get told off for overdoing it. Which then makes me feel guilty because:
- I can’t help properly.
- I’m probably slowing my own healing down by refusing to sit still.
Urgh.
I think that’s the hardest bit mentally really, forcing myself to accept that resting is the job right now.
Still, counting my blessings:
the flowers look lovely, the garden sounds full of life,
the drain bag is doing what it did and helping me heal,
and despite the whinging, I do know I’m lucky ❤️
Living with Molly: Here We Go Again! 
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