Living with Molly: Here We Go Again!

🎵 Why Does It Always Rain On Me? — Travis (https://youtu.be/PXatLOWjr-k?si=uLseOpQfcXQ05_jV)

Well, first things first, before anyone starts worrying, I’m absolutely fine, I’m just having a bit of a mopey day and seeing as I promised this blog would be honest (I can’t actually remember whether I ever said “warts and all”, but let’s pretend I did 🤣), it’s only fair I share the rubbish days as well as the good ones.

Yesterday was a good day, where I felt more like me. I got up, washed my hair and got dressed. I had more energy, got out and about a bit (Specsavers and Pets at Home – yes exciting I know!) and generally felt like I was making progress.

Today? Not so much.

It’s raining on & off, I’m tired, I’ve gone back to bed and I’m spending the day in my pyjamas. And if I’m completely honest, I’ve felt a little bit sorry for myself -there I said it out loud. In fact, I’m actually really pissed off.

Each time I have a good day, I convince myself I’m turning a corner, then the next day arrives and I’m back in bed feeling crappy. I keep telling myself I’ve accepted it, but I’ve not completely.

If I had, I wouldn’t still get annoyed every time I have to cancel plans, postpone seeing people or spend another afternoon horizontal when I’d much rather be doing literally anything else. Even going downstairs sounds adventurous at this point 😆

Before you all shout at me, I know this is all part of the healing process. I know my body is busy doing important things. I know it’s only been a couple of weeks. I know, I know, I know! But knowing something and liking it are two very different things, so today I’m giving myself permission to have a grumble.

And tomorrow? Well if the pattern continues, tomorrow should be a better day.

Sam (aka miserable biatch) x

PS this lovely gift did manage to bring a smile to my face earlier

PPS no that’s not me saying I need more gifts haha