Living with Molly: Here We Go Again!

… Here We Go Again

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Well that wasn’t quite the phone call I’d been hoping for today, as it turns out, I do need chemotherapy.

FFS 😭

I think those three little letters pretty much summed up my initial reaction as I’d convinced myself there was a decent chance I’d escape it this time.

The surgery had gone well and my lymph nodes were clear so I’d clung onto that little bit of hope that maybe, just maybe, I’d done enough but apparently not.

The good news is there is a plan so here’s what the next chapter looks like…..

Actually wait a bit, as while I’m writing this the consultant has just called back and told me they’ve changed the plan slightly given the BRCA 1 & 2 mutations which they have realised when building the first plan, so apparently treatment will be weekly and not every 3 weeks like I was about to share 🥺

I now need an updated plan.

When I get it, I’ll share it.

Am I gutted? Yes.

Would I choose chemotherapy again? Absolutely not.

Am I ready? No but I will be!

Last time I had chemotherapy, they were treating cancer that had already spread to over twenty lymph nodes.

This time they’re treating me to reduce the chances of this cancer ever coming back which feels like a big difference

I’m not having chemotherapy because they’ve found more cancer, I’m having chemotherapy because they’re trying to stop me ever having to deal with this again.

I suppose that’s a pretty good reason to put up with a few months of rubbish but it still doesn’t mean I’m looking forward to it. Not even slightly.

But if that’s what gives me the best chance of being around for many more holidays, Christmases, family laughs and probably a few more crazy blog posts then let’s crack on.

I know there’ll be difficult days and probably days when I moan a lot. There may even be days where you all get totally fed up of me talking about chemo (surely not?!🤣)

Sorry in advance!

I know there’ll also be lots of good days. Coffee and time with friends and family. Walks when I’m not knackered. Even nights out! There will definitely be loss of laughing at things that really shouldn’t be funny.

So…Here we go again ❤️ are you all ready for the next roller coaster ride?!

Sam x